sometimes you just know that what your doing is wrong and yet you do it anyways...
everyone around me is doing something productive this summer and yet here i am glued to the pc chair writing this entry. i see my bookshelf a mess, i feel scared that just by pulling out my pencil books all the books may fall out.
everyday seems to be going in the same pace, everyday seems to be the same that makes you start to wonder whether it is the next day or the same day continuing on.
The air conditioner's breeze is cool, i can hear the clanking of the dishes being washed, i can hear my pc making a continuous buzz sound...the post-it notes flipping
ok most of you must have closed this page by now for those who haven't...

i have just decided that since this is going to be my last year in school i want to do all the different things that i have never done in my whole life...like bunk school all day, see the roof top of my school building atleast once, my friend suggested on a double date which i am not very sure off >_>
take part in an art competition and winning something for once, i am just sick and tired of losing it doesn't motivates me you know, fate plays cruel jokes, just when i work too hard i have to face a result of failure which further regresses me back into my former dormant personality.

and i am pretty sure that i wont become the head girl, (even the head girl thinks so) :P i am not sad about infact i am happy! :D because for once the teachers would stop nagging me about saying how perfect i have to be and corner me into being a slave for them, and even if i get into trouble, i wouldn't have to see any shocked faces of people saying "YOU OF ALL THE STUDENTS!?" O_O yah i remember once getting a warning letter the supervisor was pretty fond of me and was shocked...meh give me a break, i am just a regular student, i have my pros and cons, yah i am an above avg, usually obedient student who likes to stay outta trouble cuz i don't want my parents to feel down bcuz of me. but then just because i have a conscious just don't expect me to be all goody goody, i am irresponsible, i have sarcastic bitchy mouth which often hurts ppl (pride or feelings) unconsciously, so there i am not perfect and am really grateful for it! geez being the perfect student is like killing all the fun in your life. everyday my aim is to not try anything which would catch the teachers eye, be it good or bad....just be invisible.