i m kinda sad well ok i m lyin now but my turtle just died n i dun feel a thing...
heartless yes! DEFINITELY! well the story is that my bro was throwing its food in the water so it can swim to it n eat, but well it was just paralysed with its eyes closed shut n sunk rite at the bottom even after being tapped n shaken a couple of times it wouldn't respond so i can only assume its dead but it could have into hibernation too, but the temperatures aren't the extreme. somehow i knew it was comin cuz it was just sittin on rocks all day while the other just swam frantically to reach some imaginary being outta its tank. so we all thought it was sik probably due to weather...lets have a moment of silence n pray that the turle rests in peace (sadly i still haven't thought of name for it yet)

now, on to the recent events...well during the holidays i was pretty much inspired by czarina to have created her own blogskin, so i decided to give it a try...well umm it does look quite promising only if i wasn't soo indolent bout it. its basically pop-art, filled with patterns...depends on a person's taste my sis found it sik while i found it quite attractive n vibrant n abit retro. so that issue is still pending. Next, the whisper's of a talent show being held had reached my ears a long time bak wen it was first announced n me being unable to keep my mouth shut (yes i m a terrible secret-keeper wen it comes to gd news) so i told my friends bout it, they all were soo hyped up bout it that it was all that they could talk bout durin the whole arabic period. then the rumours came that it was for gr11 only which pissed most of the 10thgraders since our batch (well mostly my group) didn't get to do anythin for the carnival. anyways, we r just clingin on to the hope that after the grad ceremony they might organize somethin for all the 3 batches...Next, i unconciously volunteered to try out public speakin (in other words, practicin for orals by talkin infront of the whole class) yes WTH WAS I THINKIN?! no idea i wasn't even aware of it!
well it was kinda suspicious that my eng teacher was givin my side a few stares quiet frequently waitin to see if any of the gd students might volunteer to talk...well stage fright creates a mental distortion among most ppl (me among them) so no one did. by the end of the period she finally looks at my direction n says 'rabia, u can do it for the next period' i was in utter shock O_O y me -_- i sit at the second last seat i try my best to avoid anyone to reach out to me n yet her eyes r as sharp as n eagle. my friend said that she was shocked to see my raisin my hand, n there was another shock O_O I ACTUALLY VOLUNTEERED FOR IT? she was kinda shocked too, i said it was impossible maybe i raised my hand to scratch my head or somethin but thats just impossible. well it doens't matter since the consequence of my retarded unconsious action is inevidible. my topic is copyin (mostly copyright material n stuff) I finally got to see a photocopy of my badge! ^^ well they were chekin if the names were spelt correctly...so yah mine was fine, its gonna be silver in colour, n well cant wait to get my hands on it, although i have no idea wat im gonna do with it except for wearin it. i still dun get y m i still sufferin the mockins from my friends wen other ppl also became somethin too. in the bus, in the class, durin the break, in the toilet, there is that stupid chantin always goin on ' deputy head girl, 'deputy head girl'
meh, just hope that this month ends out normally without any freak shows. n i hope on completely that blogskin rite after i finish bloggin, studyin, doin hw, eatin, doin project. i wonder if that all is possible in 2 hours...dun think so lets wait for the weekend

as i stepped outside the building, the rain poured on to the streets n it sounded like a million ppl were clappin tiny claps that just amplified to make it sound like many claps, k i dunno wat i just typed but i m sure that is somethin for the readers to wrack their brains against. anyways, the buildin entrance was quite crowded my bus mate (who lives in the buildin next to mine) had come to my stop, she said the area over there was flooded, so she had to come to my stop...n so we waited with our heavy bags hung up on our shoulders givin me jolts of pain that finally convinced me too take out my bio nt bk. i knew that rain could be expected anytime, so i bought my handy plastic file ^^ (yah so i m lazy to go buy an umbrella got a prob?) but we were standin under a shelter n checkin out this wierd shop under my building called multimedia shop, apparently its been opened for quite awhile now but no one usually enters the shop, cuz it has the wierdest merchandise to sell! -_- anyways this is not bout the stupid shop but how global warming is starting to affect our dail lives.
so anyways, after 15mins most ppl started to become restless n agitated. the teachers who lived on the street behind me came my stop (since their street was flodded too),so after 30 mins of waitin with this annoyin bak pak n chatterin my teeth in the cold, my friend's mom got pissed n started phonin the drver. his response was...the way to our street is blocked so he wasn't gonna pik us up...
so thats like more than 15ppl only at my stop!n there were others at other stops! sothats like 30-40 ppl in total (includin us). so seein that i had to wake up at 5:30am n ruin my sleep, n endure my skool bag that seemed to be filled with dumbells, i felt stupid standin in the rain n waitin, u know i can now sympathize with those ppl who have been stood up on their dates. it feels horrible. so ahem my friend was gonna go to skool later with her dad round 8 n offered me a ride, my mom was like forget stay at home its rainin hevily outside, but i dun like to miss skool (yah call me a geek, but i m too lazy to copy stuff later) wen i came out by the situation had become worse than before the pavements were being slightly overflown by water, the traffic was horrible forget the main roads, the streets n service roads had been completely congested! i saw my 2 sis n bros walkin towards their car sulkin as they thought by goin to work in this traffic. ps the reason y i didn't ask them to drop me was cuz all 3 of them work in different areas n i would just be another burden for my bro, plus it was more convenient for me if i went with my friend. but then seein the traffic n all i just decided to just skip the skool, my friend asked me whether i was sure, i was hesitant for a moment but then i cant bear the traffic! i read online on gulfnews that one guy took 7 hours to reach his workstation! (reached at 3pm or sotmehin)
so i gleefully went bak to my house n my mom had that 'told-ya-so' look on her face. n then she goes like 'as i said its useless goin to skool today'
sometimes wen i think bout it, it seems too wierd that my mom is discouragin me from goin to skool while i m debatin against her with all the possible reasons in my mind.

anyways this just a random old song on rain although its kinda sad but i like the sound of it sometimes it feels soo soothin after hearin continous 5hrs of rock music or rap.


but if u wanna listen to a more happy tone then here u r
http://www.fileden.com/files/2006/10/20/303106/01.%20MR.RAINDROP.rbs


i think the weather is just changin due to global warmin as it is startin to affect the wind patterns which is causin such a dramatic change. i wonder if dubai would really flood next winter...

well, since the start of jan its been super cold...its never been this cold in dubai! i m pretty much sure of it! is it global warmin? nah that should heat up the place probably its global dimming

anyways, today was the open house, n for the first time i decided to do my duty as a badge holder...look whose talkin bout repsonsibility hehe. i thought i would skip it but then i felt guilty since i didn't come on the previous open house (sik with fever) so i decided to come.

n so begins my day as i woke with darn alrm clock ringin in the mornin. as i stepped outside my house, the frosty breeze made shiver to my toes. it wasn't pretty comfortable in the bus since there were barely 3 or 4 ppl sittin far away from each other to provide any warmth. i thought i was early to reach skool n almost stepped into the class with my tie ragged down n the collar split open. luckily i noticed just in time n arranged my attire. till 10am i was helpin round the floor doin tiny chores...hasangi was actually frustrated by the fact that a friend had betrayed her trust (the friend convinced her that she would come to skool but she didn't show up) then girls in our class skippin duties, n our seniors dumpin the dirty work on us.

at 10 we went down to the lobby to greet the parents n help them around. i was actually abit taken bak by seein ms alessa in formal attire (neva seen her before like that!) she looked sophisticated. but unfortunately her manner just melted away the deceit. it wasn't that she was jumpin round, its just that she was doin a far more better job than us in greetin the parents. our soft murmurs of respect were nothin compared to her loud n friendly greetins. as for me, it was pretty damn hard to keep on smilin for more than 15 mins, my cheeks started to ache, n i gave rong directions to a few parents (NOT INTENTIONALLY!) n hasangi had to correct me, so from then onwards i usually told the parents to ask her for directions. after an hour i got bored n started to play sodoku on my mobile (mom's) but i wished weneva a parent(s) came in. but then i couldn't concentrate due to all the noise. after half an hour, my glumy face attracted warda's attention (must have looked like this ---> to her) n outta pity she took my spot n told me to take a break. after which i never came bak....

as i was walkin it was almost time for the skool band's performance, i forgot its name though. well the intro for first song sounded kinda familiar (hmm wonder if they had copied a few parts from somewhere) but the overal music was gd. the prob was that the volumes for the mic weren't adjusted properly. the drums were the loudest n i felt srry for the kids who sat on the bench that was rite next to the huge speaker. the mic for the vocals was just pathetic, the voice came out muffled n low, it almost seemed like an instrumental band. the sad thing is everyone listened to the music while probably 3 or 4 cheered for them (probably their own friends) i enjoyed the music as i played my game of sodoku n did a little clap for them in the end . after 3 performances it began to drizzle so it was time to cover up the equipment. ate a packet of chips. went upstairs n found hasangi. later we ate lunch which consisted of a sik soggy chicken burger, n roya made me completely lose my appetite by sayin that she saw a hair in one of them(it was a joke ofcourse) had a can of mountain dew wen my dad called n said he was in my class.

turns out that he hadn't paid fees for dec & jan so i couldn't receive my report card unless the fees was paid . well, i m a mini version of my dad in personality ofcourse. he didn't wanted to wait in the line cuz it was too crowded. impatient as always. seeing his stubborness i had no choice but to volunteer. so i waited 30 mins in the line . i played sodoku while i was waitin but then i got a headache n was sik of waitin. seriously that particular cashier was totally incompetent compared to others (probably new). while i was waitin for my turn my dad suddenly shows up, with my papers in his hand, n says he's goin home . well i had to stay till 4 anyways...so the stupid chashier gave 1 hundred note n gave melike bunch of 5 notes! (all the 5 notes totally summed up to 60 so u can imagine how many 5 notes i had) so i went bak upstairs n amelita the receipt n asked if she would like to take the change, she gave me a 50note, n suddenly my pocket felt much lighter...with the receipt, money, mp3 player, n mobile.

then from 2 to almost 4:20 i just loitered on the floor sometimes flippin my phone out to play sodoku, i think most of the ppl must have thought i sendin n sms all the time (but i dunno how to >_<). alotta guys came maybe to discuss for their mocks or somethin, then i couldn't help but eavesdrop a lecture being given to 2 girls, both r gd friends n both their parents were lecturin...well those 2 r hopeless but the words that were being used were quite amusing. then a few of my friends came n i went off with my friendly greetings . as i was leavin i was givin another task to go upstairs n talk to the supervisor bout somethin (unimportant n irrelevent) so i went but she was talkin to a parent n i was waited n waited, wen the converstaion finally finished, n as i was bout to advance she called out to another teacher n started talkin in private...TO HELL WITH THIS! i dun wanna miss my bus cuz of this stupid task thats not even related to me! so i left...n went to my bus (but turned out i had to go to a van)

as i listenin to the music n playin sodoku, i noticed that the clouds were gigantic n grey also known as cumulonimbus (clouds that bring showers of rain, learnt it in gr7 n still remember it :D) the chills brought by the winter were soothened by the hearty atmosphere of the teachers laughin n complainin) my chem teacher complained that she had been deceived by the authorities as someone told her that the open house was from 10am-5pm. n the truth brought to her by a student. the irony here is the fact that slavery done by students wasn't enough to satisfy them that they had to trick the new teachers. n today i learnt somethin shockin, that the bus driver knew my name but i dunno his...well i never had the need to know...

n so here i m wonderin y i m bloggin bout this wen no one exactly is interested... i can see y all my other friends who stayed bak last time didn't want to do it again, well i have learnt my lesson dunno bout hasangi though (this was her second experience)

so i have finally turned 16. i wonder y the heck its called sweet 16. y dun ppl exactly see the point that ur growing older, an year of ur life is finished, n plus u're gonna get dumped with more responsibilities!!!!! the only thing different bout this birthday is that 1) i got lotsa hugs, (n i mean lots!) 2)got whipped all over my face 3)got to see a red moon! more to come
well technically that would be the moon of the 31st dec. but wth, it looked pretty kl, it was huge, n was shaped like a dome 'D' turn this D further 90degree clockwise. n u will get a smile. :) n it had sort of a redish glow to it, not yellow but sorta like orange n red. i just came to know that i was gonna get a mobile for my birthday, but due to the votes given by the majority the plan was cancelled, cuz i m n anti-social freak, who just plays games on mobiles, forgodsake i barely know how to send an sms! (never had to send one) so u see i pretty outdated with mobiles which is y i need one become one of the stereotypes. i dunno y but for the past few days i have been in a fancy of rainbow socks, dunno y i just feel like buyin such whacky sox! ehehehe.
now the thing bout birthday presents is that ppl usually ask 'wat do u want for ur birthday?' which is basically the most tedious task for me to handle, ofcourse i have my wishlist, but i wonder if u can even afford it cuz i certainly cant. so u cant really ask someone to buy for u a gift worth 3500bucks, cuz its just not feasible, but then its wat i really want so r u sure still wanna get me wat i want?
on the other buying a pair of socks wouldn't be a prob, now would it, but the thing is that the idea is so whacky that none of them r takin it seriously, i wouldn't even mind if u get me a kl keychain for my bag!, god birthday dilemas r soo hectic, U JUST CANT GET WAT U WANT!
a friend gifted me headphones for my mp3 player which amplify the bass, the only setbak is that it is PINK! -_- its just that i m not a big fan of baby pink, but who cares bout the colour as long as teh quality is gd!
so the day seems to be going like any other day, with the usual chores, n the usual scoldings. i wonder wats gonna happen durin the evenin. my dad looks pretty excited, which is kinda wierd in a way, well this is the first time i have seen him soo excited compared to all the other birthdays i have had. well i gues i m the smallest n also havin it on sucha special date, but hey i know the value of being pampered unlike some ppl in this world, plus i might have been born on the first but i m usualy the last in almost everything i do, be it sports, sittin down for studies etc.
so i m gonna cut 2 cakes i guess, i have already cut one at the point where the struck 12am on 31st dec, oh n btw did i tell i blew 17 candles? the person who must have set up the candles probably would have been really gd at maths. plus my sis bought these candles on which the colour of the flame changes into the colour of the candle, so there was this blue colour candle which had a blue flame, it looked pretty kewl. n the other one i'll cut today again durin the evenin probably with my family (i just hope they dun put the cream on my face for one thing i already had my face covered up on new year's eve)
another thing bout birthday is that u gotta make a wish before blowin out the candles, wats up with that? my wishes never came true so its just stupid tryin to even think bout em.
i cant believe that i can be soo critical bout birthdays, but hey guess wat i m. wel i guess the env that u grow up in does plays up a major part of ur personality. meh i just want to wish everyone a happy new year, n oh my new year resolution is to enjoy live each moment of my life, no matter how borin they may be.