hmm. well skool seems to be goin normally... i m pretty much bored rite now. so i thought of participatin in the essay n singn competition...i m not sure whether i might get passed from the preliminary rounds but its worth a shot, (like the time i gave my cv for fun n became a dp head girl!) so who knows... rite now i have to decide wat to rite my paragraph on n as for singin heck i dun think i have a chance since its inter-skol (best of the best crap show) so i m pretty sure bout that but still it doesn't hurts to try.
then, i have been quite bugged these days from all the teasing i have gotten since i got a badge more than any of my other friends who got theirs...its been like a week, but it feels like an year. yesterday me n my bro had n instrumental duet jam, he played the guitar n i piked up my recorder which i haven't played for like 2 years now, surprisingly i remembered how to play most of the notes i learnt, although it was pretty hard to decide on a tune but it was fun.

today for some funny old story my dad (he was the culprit) was gettin rubbed on by my mom, n i found him starin at me... 'y r u lookin at me -_-'?' 'i was hopin u would support me' 'no i dun support ppl who r rong to begin with, i have my own values' he misinterpreted my value as in reputation (dunno how), while i meant value as in morals. n he went OHO! so now u value huh, i understand where thats comin from' i was like 'umm no wen i said 'values' i meant morals...' my dad is like 'whats moral?' -_-; forget it, i would be wasting my breath...another one of my dad's usual encounters.

just i m havin an urge to eat oranges....hmm. i wanna find new subjects to test my photography skills on (even though there are none). i jsut realized the real meanin of an artist! a person who creates somethin original rather than copyin! (well i knew that before but now i just saw livin example) most ppl in our skool think a person who can just draw well is an artist while that soo not true! i remember for the class poster i was havin such a head ache tryin to make all the ideas practical! there are ppl who can draw really well in my class, but they all just know how to copy n not create! :( ideas were presented to them but they couldn't create a final sketch. it was pretty annoyin to have such ppl to be refered to as artists...hmph. although i m one of them too...hehe i can only copy to but i do like to create stuff, n mostly wen i m able to well thats just pure luck

i have been frownin alot these days...dunno y. but i like to frown for some wierd unknown reason. n recently theres like this wierd epidemic runnin in my house, where everyone seems to be tappin their fingers on my head wenva i m sitin at the pc. O_O maybe cuz they know i get bugged by it so they do it. it doesn't matter whter i scold cuz they still do it, bunch persistant pesters in the house. i did wanted to to post a pic of my badge darn cant find the stupid wire of the cam! grr...

somehow i just haven't got used to teh the fact that i have to order ppl...ehh well my words were never given much of any importance (n i m sik of tryin) so its kinda wierd to order ppl round. my friends usually laugh just by the thought of me orderin them -_-' well thats wat u get from treatin elders n younger ppl equally, but i dun really care. ppl should listen to someone (big or small) if that person makes sense n has a logical reason. i still dun y i have to treat elders n young ppl differently, i have a common respect of decency for both, y should i treat someone special for no reason. i believe in equality! Respect is not a food that should be given just to satisfy a person's personal hunger of EGO! theres no such rule ritten anywhere! so then just y the hell do ppl keep formin such stupid neurotic rules!
if a person falls down i would help him/her regardless of whether they r big or small.

even though i have got a badge (which is supposed to be a big thing) i dun feel anythin, except for the fact that i have got more burden on my shoulders. then y does everon keeps tellin me that i should be proud of it? should i be proud of being a slave?! atleast maids n servant get paid for their effort, wat do i get? more complains n more whinings? sheesh its hopeless, i might as well try to create a difference here but know the chances are o.oooooooooooooooooooooooo1%. but i'll definitely try...although i have no idea where to start :S

i might try talkin to headmaster bout a bake sale or somethin outta which each grade of sections might try doin somethin profitable, create stands or sometin not carnval though but it could happen everyday durin break where ppl can sell home made cookies or somethin nice. each day a different grade. n the funds could be divided into three portions 25% for charity 25% for the skool (cuz they wont let u do this for free) n 50% is ur own profit. n the class with the most funds may get a prize! rather a stupid certificate of recognition but somethin new installed in the class to make it seem. it wont be impartial since the class has earned it. so how is it? makes me really wonder y didn't i take commerce... i might try askin ppl around n see their reaction n then gather a few of my council member friends to present the idea to the headmaster. i think its 1000 times better than alessa's lame prom idea so tell me wat u guys think