hmm. well skool seems to be goin normally... i m pretty much bored rite now. so i thought of participatin in the essay n singn competition...i m not sure whether i might get passed from the preliminary rounds but its worth a shot, (like the time i gave my cv for fun n became a dp head girl!) so who knows... rite now i have to decide wat to rite my paragraph on n as for singin heck i dun think i have a chance since its inter-skol (best of the best crap show) so i m pretty sure bout that but still it doesn't hurts to try.
then, i have been quite bugged these days from all the teasing i have gotten since i got a badge more than any of my other friends who got theirs...its been like a week, but it feels like an year. yesterday me n my bro had n instrumental duet jam, he played the guitar n i piked up my recorder which i haven't played for like 2 years now, surprisingly i remembered how to play most of the notes i learnt, although it was pretty hard to decide on a tune but it was fun.

today for some funny old story my dad (he was the culprit) was gettin rubbed on by my mom, n i found him starin at me... 'y r u lookin at me -_-'?' 'i was hopin u would support me' 'no i dun support ppl who r rong to begin with, i have my own values' he misinterpreted my value as in reputation (dunno how), while i meant value as in morals. n he went OHO! so now u value huh, i understand where thats comin from' i was like 'umm no wen i said 'values' i meant morals...' my dad is like 'whats moral?' -_-; forget it, i would be wasting my breath...another one of my dad's usual encounters.

just i m havin an urge to eat oranges....hmm. i wanna find new subjects to test my photography skills on (even though there are none). i jsut realized the real meanin of an artist! a person who creates somethin original rather than copyin! (well i knew that before but now i just saw livin example) most ppl in our skool think a person who can just draw well is an artist while that soo not true! i remember for the class poster i was havin such a head ache tryin to make all the ideas practical! there are ppl who can draw really well in my class, but they all just know how to copy n not create! :( ideas were presented to them but they couldn't create a final sketch. it was pretty annoyin to have such ppl to be refered to as artists...hmph. although i m one of them too...hehe i can only copy to but i do like to create stuff, n mostly wen i m able to well thats just pure luck

i have been frownin alot these days...dunno y. but i like to frown for some wierd unknown reason. n recently theres like this wierd epidemic runnin in my house, where everyone seems to be tappin their fingers on my head wenva i m sitin at the pc. O_O maybe cuz they know i get bugged by it so they do it. it doesn't matter whter i scold cuz they still do it, bunch persistant pesters in the house. i did wanted to to post a pic of my badge darn cant find the stupid wire of the cam! grr...

somehow i just haven't got used to teh the fact that i have to order ppl...ehh well my words were never given much of any importance (n i m sik of tryin) so its kinda wierd to order ppl round. my friends usually laugh just by the thought of me orderin them -_-' well thats wat u get from treatin elders n younger ppl equally, but i dun really care. ppl should listen to someone (big or small) if that person makes sense n has a logical reason. i still dun y i have to treat elders n young ppl differently, i have a common respect of decency for both, y should i treat someone special for no reason. i believe in equality! Respect is not a food that should be given just to satisfy a person's personal hunger of EGO! theres no such rule ritten anywhere! so then just y the hell do ppl keep formin such stupid neurotic rules!
if a person falls down i would help him/her regardless of whether they r big or small.

even though i have got a badge (which is supposed to be a big thing) i dun feel anythin, except for the fact that i have got more burden on my shoulders. then y does everon keeps tellin me that i should be proud of it? should i be proud of being a slave?! atleast maids n servant get paid for their effort, wat do i get? more complains n more whinings? sheesh its hopeless, i might as well try to create a difference here but know the chances are o.oooooooooooooooooooooooo1%. but i'll definitely try...although i have no idea where to start :S

i might try talkin to headmaster bout a bake sale or somethin outta which each grade of sections might try doin somethin profitable, create stands or sometin not carnval though but it could happen everyday durin break where ppl can sell home made cookies or somethin nice. each day a different grade. n the funds could be divided into three portions 25% for charity 25% for the skool (cuz they wont let u do this for free) n 50% is ur own profit. n the class with the most funds may get a prize! rather a stupid certificate of recognition but somethin new installed in the class to make it seem. it wont be impartial since the class has earned it. so how is it? makes me really wonder y didn't i take commerce... i might try askin ppl around n see their reaction n then gather a few of my council member friends to present the idea to the headmaster. i think its 1000 times better than alessa's lame prom idea so tell me wat u guys think

its the aroma that is filling the atmosphere of the skool these days. Leadership. where one can stand ahead and make a statement n take responsibility risking their own shoulders to break

wat a bunch of crap! who gives a shit bout slaving ur butt off n get nothing in return if God can give us something in return for our worship then y cant these sucky ppl at skool give us some benefits for doing them favours, like giving discount on food or something or money this will definitely get the ppl motivated n there will be heavy competition for such posts! but as long there are students who are willing to slave their butts y should they even consider thinking of such an idea?

i already had too much burden on my unwanted shoulders, even though i m not in the art club i stil gotta do the artwork for class! y? cuz i m the only person who is good enough to draw, i mean seriously all the ppl who say they are good in art suk! they efing b***es in my class just needed a dummy on whom they can throw the responsibilty. amelita was cheerin me on until the end, she was the one who put me in this position in the first place. how the HELL CAN U MAKE A COMIC STRIP FOR A POSTER! u certainly cant draw stick figures, seriously these ppl need to think of stuff that is practical!

while this wasn't enough of a headache, i and some other students were called out for something, later we came to know it for school council, but we didn't really know wat our positions were. yesterday we wasted 2 periods in the auditorium, sitting n learnin 2 lines! (i still cant remember it though) n today too we wasted maths, chem n eng! this totally suks if this is wat its gonna be like being in skool council then i quit. me n my friends were talkin most of the time i found a guy in the skool council who was my class mate in grade 2, a sri lankan guy (he was lookin at me too at times) he was really annoying bak then seriously i just borrowed his pencil once without his permission n he was like i m gonna tell the teacher! i was like go ahead tell mam as if i care n then he goes like TEACHER!!! but even she didn't listen to him lolz that is the only memory i remember with him, then who else i spotted a few more but most of the time i was goofin round , n then they finally told us our positions, my friends were chosen for being the vice captain of alpha, beta n sigma, then deputy games captain. n as for me...gues who i was Deputy Head Girl, i was like

seriously i still cant believe it! most of my friends were like U! while doing this O_O n then like this cuz i m the laziest person alive in 10th grade, even my bus mate was like (shes in the class council though) i dun think i will be able to juggle this n studies, plus with the board exams, if it was last year then i would have been ok but not this year, i definitely cant skip any classes...

tomorow i'll be gettin my badge n its gonna be wierd, plus i need a white shirt which i dun have so if any of u guys can lend it to me just for tomorow it would be gr8!

so finally my sis decided to accompany me to take passport photographs in the school unifom! the fact theres is too much traffic on the road all the time it was quite an obvious choice that we had to walk, n the studio was like probably 1 or 2 mile (k wats the difference between metre n miles?) i dunno but it was a long way down the road...

so i had no choice but to walk with my sis in the evenin at 7, wearing full school uniform with tie button-closed, god n the stares!!!!!!!!!!!! GAAAAAAAAH THE FREAKING STARES! i felt like running to my house but had no choice but to keep walkin foward, guys from saloon looked outside, boys playing football stopped playing for a sec, n i think a guy from my bus also saw me, god this sukssssssssssssssssssssssssssss plus it was pretty hot . by the time we reached the studio it was closed for maintenince, n my luck was soo effed up!!!!

but luckily we did find a studio close by, ene the guys inside were staring, gaahh wen will this horrible trip end!!!

after we took the pics, i removed my tie immediately, n after i got outta the studio i let out a huge sigh of relief...i knew that i have faced the height of humility that anyone can face, so wateva i do shouldn't really shock ppl round me, n i frolicked n jumped with glee, by the time i reached my house i had already stretched my arms out n started singin i believe i can fly...hehe n i was laughin at myself wen i got home n thought bout all the crazy things i did

ps:- i thought of putting emoticons, so that ppl can really know wat my expressions were at that time

so a new term n a new gr has begun. well to be honest its pretty borin now since most of our teachers are strict n the absence of a special girl shall always be in our hearts (the rich girl :( ) that means no more treats, no more childish tag games in the class, no more duster fites, no more fart bombs, n certainly no more money for me! :(
but all the beginin of the grades r usually like this, boring. but then gets interesting later, i cant say that we might have the same fun as last year since we dun have such a lenient teacher who has a hawk eye for spottin out troubles. i mean seriously i cant believe shes gonna call our parents up just to verify that they have read n signed the circular O_o (seems like she has soo much of free time) anyways, i was hopin that physics would be taught by my old class teacher but she was designated to g5, which pretty much worse than ours, i mean we used to only pull out pranks in secret, but they openly insult n scream in the class -_- i really feel srry for her. plus its just i have to bring my maths n physics text every class!!! WTH i think my bones r soo gonna break this year.
the former-deepa-class was pretty happy n satisfied with their class teacher, since she doesn't really give a damn as to wat the class is doin n just teaches her subject. so from the students' point of veiw, its more like a bird that is given freedom.

well then lets see wat happens this year i hope i would be able to make some interestin memories this term.

ps:- i m really scared bout the board exams >_< !