k since i got tagged by Pam for this stupid thing i now have somethin to rite bout!

10 wierd habits or stuff bout me

1) i m usually unnoticable among my group of friends n usually daydreamin while walkin with my friends...n the worst part is i have no idea where these random things are gettin in my brain! n i just cant remember them after a while

2) a poor memory, i can easily forget wateva u tell after 5 mins, my sis is quite confused as to how i give my exams, i dun mug up un less i really have to (eg:-arabic)

3)i have been in this skool for like 7 yrs, n i hardly know any ppl! i just know ppl who are in 9th since they are my old friends, but as for other grades nope, n i dunno any guys either, i dun even remember the ones that i studied with (well duh that was like 5 years n with an amnesia like mine forget it)

4)i really dunno how to start a conversation with a person, u can see me sittin beside my best friend n barely chattin for 10 mins durin the whole period

5)my friends sometimes learn a lesson from their mistakes, when i had known the same lesson from a long time without havin to suffer...is that even wierd? no thats just common sense

6)break time is never enough for me to finish my lunch, i know i m really slow n my friends make fun of me sometimes.

7)i can have mood swings rite in the middle of the class, n usually my mood swings r not soo gd, i remember i said somethin really bad to mr.micheal just cuz of my mood swing n really hurt him more of shocked to find such a goody-goody girl from a goody-goody background to say stuff like that...i did apologized later

8) no taste in romance...i hate sweet talk, i would really kick a person if he called me 'his baby' my dad even does not says such lame stuff!

9)i still watch powerpuff girls, but my hours of watchin cartonnetwork has greatly decreased since last year...but even now i still watch cartoons not on tv but on my computer

10)dun really care bout my future fate is gonna decide that, my present is really borin n i really want a BANG in my life or go on an adventure! my past is quite nostalgic n boring...so i m just living my life aimlessly but someday i m gonna get cracked n i will do somethin really crazy which will make me regret alot...i m already startin to have plans for sprayin graffiti on the the school walls outside n blamin it on boys! (these are one those random thoughts that i have) muahahaha...i really wish it was somehow possible

i guess that might be all but i might be doin some more wierd stuff which i really dun remember rite now...

waaaaaaaaaaah!
wth just happend!?
all the stupid images gone!
hmm i thought i would re-upload them n scream at the designer of this template for suddenly vanishin all the images!!
but then who cares! i m too lazy too reupload them all somewhere around 20-25 images...
i think it would be better if i just put a new template

"so?"
"wat do u mean by "SO"?!"

dun u all ever wonder how to tell a person to "mind your own business" without makin them feel that ur being disrespectful towards them?
i do

just for the record i m not gd with words just a straight foward person...but i guess that straight fowardness can hurt ppl especially adults who r really close minded or anyone who is over sensitive n can not take no for an answer.

see i had a fite with a person, who is always critical n pokey bout everythin i do (no, its not my mom) which really ticks me off, one time ok, second time ok, all the time NOT ok...
nyways that person was givin me an unwanted-advice on somethin, n i just said "so?"
that person got all pissed, thought that i was disrespectful n ungrateful...
ungrateful for wat? i didn't ask for ur lame advice!

y is it that God always gives u stuff that u dun even ask for n makes u suffer ever lastingly for the things u really wished would happen

it happend to me soo many times that the thing that i desire soo much comes at the point wen i least want it! n usually turns out to be on my disadvantage.

being a teenager sux! i cant believe that i actually wished once that i wanted to be a teenager quickly n u see its again goin against me which exactly proves my theory!!

i should really become a philosopher since i got loads of crappy theories made up in my mind about social life which is quite true

gah i m not makin sense anymore!!! someone plz send me to a mental hospital or just disect my brain n through it in the bermuda triangle...O_o

so there my friend was peepin outside the door lookin for the chem teacher which was nowhere to be found. wen suddenly this almost bald guy shows up n was in a deep conversation with a teacher...the only bald guy who the whole skool knows, i m sure u know who i m talkin bout, yup the headmaster or the vice principal.

i had a gut instinct tellin me that this guy is definitely gonna come inside since there is no substitution teacher, n we were all just roamin around n guess wat it came true. he came inside asked us where our teacher was, hell as if we know! so nyways he started talkin n the topic drifted to how littered our class was (for a couple of days) n then he started sayin somethin bout the teachers not feelin passion bout their job, n then power n went on on....even to his own history of schoolin. we were bored as helll!!!! first of all no one understood his fancy words n wat he was tryin to say was somethin beyond the teenage comprhension, yes i know the fact that power can influence the minds of the ppl, but thats the only thing i understood after his whole meaningless speech!

i tried to answer him bak after a few times just to show that we r not dimwits sittin here in gr9 but then if no one is really bothered then y should i

we were talkin bout how unjust the head of section is cuz she always takes 9g2 or 9g4 or other classes i dun think i went to any of the competitions as an audience this year n it sux! he said y do u think they r not allowin u to go? well maybe cuz of some over-smart assed students but all classes have that n theres alot especially in 9g4!, he said how many of u think that ur a bad representative for this class? raise up ur hands, yah rite as if someone's really tat stupid to do that...just then the arabic substitution teacher enters the class, she was late 20 mins instead of firin that woman off he showed a polite smile, she did looked kinda hesitened though. after she entered they both stood infront of the board n were talkin n from somewhere a chalk comes flyin on the board makin a loud TAK! noise on the board...

there u go got ur answer?

i was kinda shocked n abit amused as i looked at the girl who obviously had the guts to do it...but the amusement was soon gone as the headmaster picked up that peice of chalk n as we held our breaths to see her get fired by him, he said "let me return this to its original owner" n he went n kept it on on that girl's desk n that girl shamelessly denyin the fact that she did it...n again he started lecturin us bout some crap. durin that time i was tryin to figure out how did he know who it was? since he was talkin to the arabic teacher i guess he could where it was comin from from the corner of his eyes...
i think now, 9g1 is definitely never ever gonna see any shows

the following next day, someone threw a chalk at mr micheal's glasses...i think that was quite dangerous since it could have gone into his eye... wen we again turned to that girl, she again refused to admit that she did, mr micheal was really pissed n started lecturin " do u think by doing all this u think u r cool?" 1% yes 99% no,
the next day ms sibi gave that girl a big firin, but that really doesn't matter since that girl does it every time,

y is it that whichever class i go to its always the worst! well not always but usually. last year i believe that our class was the laziest among the whole gr8, i m not sayin that i was a hardworkin person n all, i can be one of them but laziness always wins the better part of me. the year before that was the one with warnin letters, n a girl got kicked outta the skool for havin a relationship (dun worry it was much more dramatic n complicated) the point is i feel that i m cursed to always be in the worst class no matter wat!!! but then i really wouldn't want my class to be like g2 either, since they have to be the perfect role-model for other clases...i would rather have my class than to be in that class.

oh well i can live with the bad reputation for our class but not with a screwed up n totally boring school life

"u r my crush"

hmm, well today was like just another day except the fact that teachers were wearing pink or red...n our maths teacher well she just has no taste in romance (as if i do)

so anyways u must be wonderin just wth the line in the blockquote is about, lolz it was a joke played on me nd ofcourse i could see that it was a joke before anyone had to tell me...

break had just got over, n i was just starin outside the window...bored
suddenly my friend comes up to me n says "oh rabia, i almost forgot" *hugs* "happy valentines day!" "yah same to u to" n hugged back...wen i tried to pull away she didnt let me go 'k somethin's fishy here' i thought
"umm, can u let me go now?" i asked kinda irritated "u r my crush!"
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i screamed n shrieked the hell outta my lungs n just pulled n fell down on the chair, i was feelin almost suffocated with my eyes stretched wide "get the hell away from me u FREAK!!!" lolzz i knew she was kiddin since she had a boyfriend...she started laughin so loudly that she almost fell...n everyone was starin at me, no one knew just wat was goin on the just had someone shriekin really loud, gd thing ms amelita wasn't there, or else my friend n i would be drop dead...hehe
after i was done through my paranoia, i started laughin, althought it did scared the hell outta me for a moment

i guess all gd things must come to an end...i might have to look for a new job since the rich girl could not lemme do her h.w anymore since her cousin has arrived from her extra-1-month holiday n she suspects alot n has a mouth of a parrot. so i guess i have to search here n there again

yay!! today is my blog's birthday! happy birthday blog
well now its 2 yrs old
2 yrss of ranting ands complaints
2 yrs of meaningless posts
hehe

btw happy valentines day to those who r gonna celebrate it (although i m sure the whole 9th grde is gonna celebrate even though we are not allowed) :P
n especially be careful of deepa tommorow! god knows wat sadistically evil plans she has stored in her mind for those who got caught passin letters.

"sis, should i come?" "u can if u want to"

from today onwards i detest graduations to the core!
at first i couldn't decide whether i should go or not, since tomorow is eng lit test. but then i decide wth lets just go, who knows if u'll be able to live long enough to see another one. so i went n took the story bk (Pride n Prej) so i could read in the car...i read for a little while but there was toomuch of disturbance since my mom n my sis were talkin beside me n lets not forget my 2 bros who constantly kept yapping bout cars. so anyways wen we reached there it was kinda like a ballroom n then we entered the theatre room where ceremony was be held.
it was the worst thing ever... i was soooooooooooooooooooooooo bored. fist some chanceller guys comes up gives a speech, then another n then another like this there were like 3 speeches made n then this female student comes up n gives another speech, so during the whole time i was reading my book n yet i was able to finish only 2 chapters! my sis reminded me that it was rude that i was readin while the speech was going on. i just looked at her with a poker face n said "i get enough of it at skool, n plus its crap, atleast i m learnin somethin over here"
after the speeches were over, certificates were handed out inside a file. k just as to not confuse u all i have 2 sis during this whole ceremony, one who attended with us as a guest n the other was the graduate. so my sis got an award since she got her gpa over 3.4 (suma cum laude) n the damn ppl had spelt my dad's name wrong!!!
later we ate a little, the food was cold basically they just served appetizers we clicked some pics n came back home. n i wasted 3 hours for nothing.
i m sure it must be exciting n abit intimidating for the graduates. i mean no more studyin crap! u have learnt as much crap that was supposed to be taught!
but from my point of veiw
gradutation still sux

ok i wanted to stayback for photojournalism, just because it contained the word photo...i dun give a damn bout journalism! but i feel that the moment i accepted the offer, i was suked into this world of writing stories...sure i wouldn't mind riting stuff, if it was given for punishment!
i mean i dun wanna stay back just to rite articles which half of the school wouldn't bother to even read... as they said during the presentation "a picture says a thousand words..." thats y i want to take photography, to combine everything u want to say in just a single shot is quite hard...ut riting bout it...let me tell u i m not gd with adjectives so there..
i dun wanna be a journalist! i dun wanna rite for the school mag (even if they made one which i doubt it) i m happy just riting poems, but riting reviews n critics etc. they will just bore me to death! as pam requested, i'll just a few pics here n the one on which my bro commented on although i dun find anythin special bout it...

this is actually the second photo that i took since my passion for photography started (which was like an year ago)

this one is well the inside of a glass...looks like a kaliedoscope doesn't it? well i just placed camera on self-time set it on top of the rim of the glass..n viola! (i forgot to put my name!)

ok it sux i know that

nuts...

n this is the pic on which my bro commented...its ok i guess

k i like this pic, it can be my msn dp, instead of that stupid cute sunflower...if only it wasn't blurred agggggggghhh! i hate this camera, n the guitar is dirty <_<>

now do u think i should buy a SLR? cuz if i do, then i would be takin alotta my friends for modellin! (mostly emotive pics, n not stupid fashion pics...maybe 1 or 2) n if i dun like the way u fake it, then ur out! that is only if i have the stupid camera arrrrrrgh its driving me crazy!

"did u take this pic?"

k i have still need 2000dhs more to reach my goal few days ago wen i was absent from skool(missed the bus), i was bored so i took out the camera n started takin pics of my bros' guitars...i hate this camera cuz it doesn't have a hand stabilizer. n since i didn't have enough space in my pc, i transferred the pics to my bro's pc. n i dunno how he found out n he has kept one of the pics as his desktop wallpaper. later, my other bro comes up n sees that pic, calls me up... "did u take this pic?" ok i was embarrased, i dunno y but i was kinda flushed out..."yah," "its nice" then he asked me whether i was interested in photography, i was like yah. so he told me then there was education in AUS, then we talked bout career in it...n it wasn't that gd, but it depended on the projects i got. n then he asked me do u know y this pic is gd?, well i just said that i have no idea since i took the photo cuz the angle pleased me, then he taught me somethin bout a thing called "symmetry & a-symmetry" n a bit of contrast. He knows stuff bout perspective n stuff cuz he's studyin architecture.... n then i told him bout the SLR, well i was hopin for a negative response but it was somewhat positive, he was first abit surprised wen i told him bout the price, he asked wats the diference in the cameras?
well,the firs thing would be that it does have a hand stabilizer! which wont let me take blurry shots. picture quality million times better etc

blah blah blah we had discussion, on a hobby called photography
he said i might have to study hard if i DUN wanna be a Doc

n all i can say, is that i might have somewat found a little support from my family, but u never know went it can change to a negative vibe the spreads like an epidemic throughout the family.

btw i just finished this book called "the alchemist" by paulo coelho, n i think i m pratcially deaf to the voice of my heart but i can hear my consious tellin me"u r an idiot tryin to do so" after readin this book, i really feel that the quote

"the whole world conspires to help u reach ur destiny"

is really true. Since wen i luvd photography, i had no cash to buy a camera, suked in photography n no family support...but now everythin is kinda improvin, i can make cash, i m gettin abit better, n slowly startin to gain family support. Maktub...

srry for droolin my obssession of photography here

Labels: family support, photography, SLR, the alchemist

"wth? it seems to be suspended in the air, neither moving foward or backward..."

yesterday was just like any other day, except for the fact that i missed my bus...so my dad had to wake up a bit early to drop me off, we didn't had much of a conversation, so like any other person i was just staring blankly out the window, cars with ppl glued to thier cellphones, just stuck up in a traffic. my gaze went up into the sky watching a huge flock of birds crossing miles...n then there i saw a plane, at first i was like so wat nothin new bout it but then, wth? it seems to be suspended in the air, neither moving foward or backward...
O_o
i rubbed my eyes just to make sure it wasn't an illusion, but there it was still...i searched for any strings or anything that would tell me the fact that it was being held by another plane or was supported by something but there was nothin,
my sis was like maybe ur car was movin too fast that it seemed like the plane was really slow,
but we were stuck in a traffic! n even if we were movin fast, u can still feel n see that plane is movin, but it was just stuck in the air!
i know no one will believe this story, maybe it was just an illusion made by my brain
but even if it was an illusion, it was damn real.
O_o