If i can create then i can destroy too, they r my creations

wen i woke up, i was sik of being sik! this clogged nose, husky voice, nonstop coughin, n extra laziness, i wen to school like any other schoolday, draggin myself from from the bus to my class. every one who comes n sees me says "wats rong? y r u so quiet?" i stare at them, i m being annoyed like that everyday. jeez ppl is it like u just noticed it today that i m sik with cold! n that isn't the only thing, dun tell me that u dunno me long enough to make out my personality, i m that quiet person who listens to ppls trashy lives, n then later bitch bout the how cruel the world is.

wen our class teacher arrived, she was like rabia "y r u cryin?" to hell with that as if i m ever gooooooooooin to cry, i aint that weak. "mam i m sik" sayin for the upteenth time durin the day. then she was like "no i was talkin bout that screamin pic of urs", well wat could i say, i just smiled. later shes like she didn't like the toilet door i made on the board. she was like it didn't look nice, cuz this isn't the place where it belongs, n to make matters worse, a girl in my class was like yes mam all the girls from other classes r sayin like this is not nice....thats IT! i was quiet i didn't wanted to make an issue but i couldn't control my anger (the irony is, i myself had ritten a topic called rage control for our board) i just went bak n tore off the thing. most ppl at the bak gasped, "rabia!"
there was only one thing in my mind that time: i can create then i can destroy too, they r my creations.

y was i pissed? cuz the teacher had no rite to tell us to take it off the board. If she does wanna control stuff, then she should have told us wat to do stead of givin the whole board to ourselves. n i was pissed at that girl, just bcuz her friends doesn't likes it doesn't mean she could make it all worse! i mean all the ppl that i had showed it too, they all liked it, i mean they do get a shock first, but then they eventually liked it. i mean there was nothin dirty in it, its jst a freakin door! most of the ppl n my classmates like it cuz they felt that it was somethin different they all were like "gr8 idea rabia" i was sooo excited to do this! n then came the burden of the freakin "CLOSE-MINDED PPL". y do i have to plz others, wen my friends n i are pleased?

i was so angry, that i wasn't talkin at all (i would have screamed n argued but i m sik n my husky voice just ain t good enough) later i felt like tearin somethin more, i wanted to tear aways everythin i had done for the board. i knw it would look empty but to hell with team-spirit. 2 of my fat friends tried to stop doin that, one was like u r strong! i laughed out a little, ok maybe i m overreactin a little, but i get pissed with really closed minded ppl. i know i didn't do anythin rong to be guilty of. later all my friends tried to make a fuss n argued with that girl, i was like i'm over with it so then y cant u guys be? but they went on n later...susan (our class president) comes up to me n says "i feel like killin u rite now!(with an evil grin) u didn't had to tear off that thing u know, it was the only thing that made our class look different from others," "yah but mam didn't like it" "but u didn't had to throw in the dust bin..." i gues anger can harm those around u too, ignite a fire within a person that was once calm n docile, n hurt the ones without doin anythin to them. "...make it again, I will take the responsibilty" lolz wish i could, but who would do it? my printer is jammed n i got this printed after goin to 5 ppl, i wonder if its possible to make it again, nah

conclusion is, i dun get pissed so easily but wen i do, its bad, its really bad. for me sadness usually turns into anger, n then to rebellion. i should really stop readin fearless <_<